December

Huhu..it's the month of December,suppose to be a joyous month to share with everyone.In fact, the Christmas spirit,I should feel it.But,too bad,exams are coming soon...Huhuhu..takut...tak ready..mana ngan pendings lagi.I feel that i'm at the bottom rite now.Really let myself and my family down.I need to stand up again...I need strength to do all these.God,please lead me through and give me the strength and perseverance to do it.Amen.Tambah lagi ngan masalah roomate,tak berubah.....Hmmm,susah tol.Ingat nak pindah keluar je,p banyak gler procedure....Arghhh...I just need to be ignorant towards her..Haihzz...hope that works..Plus,this month will be almost one year my mum left us.It feels so different.I really miss her.Usually,she'll be so busy doing Christmas with my beloved dad.Our house la tempat gathering for our relatives.Now,I guess my dad really feel her absence this Christmas.Everytime i skype with them,i never fail to let my tears roll down.P perlu control depan my dad.Taknak dia risau.Diz year gak,on 23rd,my lil sis gonna get her PMR result.Usually my mum la paling risau..cuz to her,our knowledge is our treasure.Always keep that in my mind.Dia nak sangat tgk anak2x perempuan dia berjaya.But now,she'll be watching us from far.Nak sangat my parents dtg Russia cuti...tapi tak sempat.I really wish to be beside my sister when she's taking her result tomorrow.I really dun 1 her to feel the lost n emptiness.Please God,be with her tomorrow,n i know u always do.